Dream a little dream for me

upside down Ciko. credit: me

If you Google  "when someone appears in your dream it means that person misses you", you will have interesting "psychological facts". Well, of course the first statement is highly debatable. I once dreamt Ricky Gervais, John Safran, a few a Greek and Russian old women, all in one occasion. Can't say they miss me, no? I don't even know the Greek and Russian women *smirk*. But it is still interesting to think that the person I dreamt actually misses me.  



Last night I dreamt about one of my exes. He's from a distant past, the first person who taught me a lot about life. He's married now, and I, because the universe loves a twisted fucked up plot, became quite good friends with his wife. I thought I would avoid them at all cost, but it didn't happen according to my plan. Back to the dream: in it, I was really close with him, sharing the typical conversation that we had when we were still together. The silly old jokes, the sarcasm towards each other, hugs and laughter. It felt so real, I woke up with a fright.

Fear aside, I knew I missed this person. And I think that's a reason for him to pop into my subconscious. I doubt that he thinks about me, let alone misses me. I know that in the end, it won't matter because I realise he was a part of my life that I have long abandoned because it was too poisonous. 

Sometimes, what's in the past doesn't stay there. When your past catches up with you, what do you do? Do you hide and wait? Do you bravely step forward and act like you don't care? I used to run and hide, but for the past two years or so, I have learnt to slowly build up my courage to face all past nightmares. Remember the cliche saying: the ultimate win is to live well.

I also have learnt that the hardest is the present. The present requires you to act, so you can move on from what is called the past and what will become of you in the future.

Maybe dreams are reminder too, letting me know that I have unresolved issues; hints for my hidden problems.Or maybe they are just silly collage that my subconscious haphazardly arranges and presents when I sleep. 

Oh, I have another fringe idea. If, let's just say, human minds are interconnected with some weird wireless system, is it possible that when we dream, we actually are connecting with the people in our dream? It will be nice, I guess. We just need to sleep to see people that we miss. Double win: sleeping and catching up with those who are dear to us.