Blog Desperation

I made this blog on June 13, 2008, because my boyfriend had insisted me for making one. When it comes to technology and its allies, I freak out easily. So, the prospect of making a blog of my own and actually try to do something with it, gave the queasy feeling in my guts. I knew that so many people had already ran their own blogs, published great articles or essay or poems, and [probably] got famous for it at that time. Well, I didn't join the club. Why? First, my laziness beats everything. Second, I have mentioned my uneasiness with technology [that includes internet and blog]. Third, see reason numero uno. So, blogging? No, thanx.
But then, this boyfriend of mine were convinced that I should have a blog so I would have a place for my writings. He didn't read all of my writings [if he did, probably he would advice me to put everything inside a drawer, lock it, and throw the key away] but yet, he was determined to helping me creating a safe haven for my writings where everyone can access, read it, and give feedback [great!]. So, I made one.
Then, what? Well, I have to do something with it, right? But I didn't do anything with it until this very day I decided to write something in it. Why [again a why]? It was because I read an advertisement on my e-mail that said I must have a blog in order to acquire a certain job in a certain company [and because my blog tutor was a bit disappointed since I haven't tried to post anything for the past seven months]. I do have one, but I haven't done anything with it except posted one short ugly work for the first try-out and that's all. Does it count? Can I fill in the requirement?
I will never know. I didn't apply. I felt that if I applied I would be cheating on myself. Because if I did apply, I would have been very busy posting every single piece that I have stored in a night [which would be very ridiculous for the company since the post dates will be published]. I didn't regret it even though the position is interesting and I'm in a desperate need of a new job. But hey, at least I can be honest with myself. I'm not a blogger...well, probably not yet, so help me God. And maybe now I will try to nurture my blog more often...

Or not.

I'll just have to see for myself.