Is It a Sin to Have a Desk Job?

I just got a new job a few days ago when finally I signed the contract. It's another media but now it's on-line and I'm not working as a proofreader anymore. Instead, I'll be working as a translator. Of course, I told my current bosses that I will resign as soon as I start my first day on the new office. Out of my expectation, one of my bosses suggested that I should stay until the end of February. I was kinda hoping he would just approve and congratulate and say good bye-adios-have a nice life. No. He said that I should try working in two places since the working hour is different. The new job requires me to work from 9 a.m. till 6 p.m., and my present job starts from 6 p.m. until 10 p.m. I thought I had figured everything that I should say so I could go from that place. Apparently I didn't planned it well enough. I couldn't say anything when my boss suggested his personal opinion which actually based on a kind reason, so I could get a month-full salary. It bores me to think about my payment in this office since the HRD just loves to delay it. But, I got the impression from the boss that at least I should try it out and see how it turns out and probably don't say no before you actually try it. So, I said OK I would try. He even said that it will be OK if I come late. So nice of him... I'm going to bust my ass for ten whole days.
From that conversation, my other boss, the not-so-nice-one, asked about my new job. He immediately criticized my choice of job. He said that a person of my age should see the world, try become a reporter since I work in a [nother] media, instead of sitting behind a desk translating other people's writings. I said it's challenging because I have to learn how to translate other people's stupidity or excellence. He disagreed, of course. He thought translating is for people above 50 years, like the translator in my current office.
I felt guilty after that conversation with my boss. I felt that I made a mistake by choosing the new job.
The question now is "Is it really a mistake for choosing a desk job while you're still young and vigorous?" I don't have the passion to become a journalist. Yes, I know that it can be fun; it will take me everywhere, possibly abroad; it gives new information every day or minute, and so on and so forth. But, I prefer translating articles, novels, and other stuff rather than running around all day covering events dan news. Is it a stupid mistake to think that way?
Well, based on my boss' perception, I am making less use of my skill and youth. He thought that since I'm still young and working in a media, I should try a more challenging job, becoming a reporter.
I thought since I love translating, don't have any passion for becoming a journalist and enjoy my time in front of my computer, it is really not a bad call, right?
Anyway, the new office pays double... :D

Freezing Jakarta

I live in Jakarta now, after spending the last 23 years of my life in Bandung. I moved when I got the job in this national media. I used to hate this city a lot. It was because the classic issues; traffic jams, pollution, super-unbelievable heat, the fast atmosphere, all of the snobs that just love being Jakartans, etc. I still hate this city because of those reasons, but now it seems life here has become a bit bearable. Why? It's freezing nowadays here in this city. Dunno why, probably because of global warming too. The weather and temperature have gone insane. I used to complain to myself how much I hated waking up with sweats everywhere, but now I can sleep with a blanket on. Mind you, I don't have air conditioner. Still can't afford one, not with my current salary.
Today's temperature was caused by last night rain. Last night the rain poured down hard. I just got back from my boyfriend's house when it started to rain. I thought it was going to be a hard-come-fast-go kinda rain. Apparently, the dear rain stayed all night. When I woke up this morning, I heard the drops on the roof, so I decided to sleep again. No sweat, no heat whatsoever. It was magnificent.
I just do hope there won't be any flood. Well, it's kinda hard not to have flood in this city. But if the house where I stay is flooded, all the houses around my house will completely drown since my house sits on a higher level. So, hopefully, no flood.
I can't say that I grow a certain likeness of this city, but the weather and temperature now really make me feel better.

The Things You Do to Escape

The things I do to escape:

1. Making lots of apologies and rationalization on my wrong-doings and irrational behaviors.
2. Start blaming other people for every s*** in my life.
3. Thinking that the person who hurts me the most is not really that great, therefore I will think that this person doesn't hurt me that much.
4. Pursuing every enjoyable moment in every scene, if possible.
5. Start seeing my old friends and have the "Geez...it's been a while. How's YOUR life?" kinda hoping they will also feel bad about their life...
6. . . . .


Fill in the blanks by yourself. I love to know how you escape your mess ;)

Direct Hit

I just posted my last note about past things in a shoe box, etc...etc... And I also replied to a friend's comment: I agree that past things soothe me in certain ways.
And then, five minutes later, I was still thinking about the earlier notes and all of the sudden, I saw my ex's face on my friend's screen. BAM!! Talking about the past, eh? The BAM!! part came since I realized that I didn't want to see that familiar face ever in my life again. Neither his face nor the memories of him soothe me. I know few years back that he lived in Jakarta, but I didn't expect him to have any encounter with my future [now present] co-workers.

Maybe this is what you get when you feel abandoned by one thing in your past, the other things [those you least expected] hurriedly run after you.

Life...